*In My Head*

If Only You Knew </3

I gave you my heart and that's all I can give you, and if that's not enough, then I'm not enough

people are gonna dissapoint you. i get that... i kind of expect that, but i dont know, what if you wake up one day and realize that you're the dissapointment

It's not about keeping your promises; it's about following your heart.

A heart is a fragile thing. That's why we protect them so vigorously, give them away so rarely, and why it means so much when we do. Some hearts are more fragile than others. Purer, somehow. Like crystal in a world of glass, even the way they shatter is beautiful.

i dont wannabe anything other than what ive been trying to be lately. all i have to do is think of me and our peace of mind. im tried of lookin around wondering what i gotta go - or - who im supposed to be..i dont wanna be anything other than ME


"To My dearest Allie,
I couldnt sleep last night because I know its over between us.
I'm not bitter anymore because i know that what we had was real.
And if in some distant future we see eachother again in our new lives,
I'll smile at you and remember how we spent a summer beneath the
trees, Learning from eachother and growing in love. The Best love
is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us want to reach for more, the kind that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and thats what you've given me. And thats what i hope to give to you forever. I love you. I'll be seeing you.


i may not always know what im doing but ill try to make things better - i promise ill ask for your help - i cant do this alone - but if you'll take a chance on me we can do great things together - i promise if you believe in me ill find the courage to reach for your every dream


when i'm around him, i can't breathe, and when i'm not around him, i want to be

I was so scared, I was so terrified. Then I saw you, and I promised myself that if I could just get up, I'd walk over to you. I'd tell you how much I need you and how much I want you and how nothing else matters."


When you're thirteen, bruises heal easily. Some of them anyway. But that night I felt pain I knew wasn't going to go away.


I'm so sorry. I know I did something terrible, horrible to you, and if I could take it back, I would. Sometimes I wish you would just do something horrible to me and then we'd be even. But you, you would never do that. It's just all these things are happening and I need someone. You're the only one I can talk to. You've always been the only one.

guys always make girls cry .. but if
a girl can make a guy cry, she must
really mean something to him then

[ [ * y o u r.p e r f e c t *] ]
because [ everything ] you do
makes me *smile*. . .because
every second spent wit you is
worth while because everyone
can see -that i'm devoted to-
you..because i [<3] your eyes
and the way you shine.because
you dont tell lies & your s0o
cute when you whine . because
because when you get madd you
cant hide it.because e v e n
when your sad - i can find it
because the way you hold me -
sends .shivers. down my spine

ThE tHiNq i LuV aBoUt yOu is tHaT yOo mAKe Me LaUqh wHeN n0tHiNg`s fUnNy

"You are my other half, without you, I'm the dance without the song. I'm the heart without the soul. Without you, I'm the words without the book, you mean so much to me! There aren't enough words to explain how much I care about you, and how much I need you in my life. You are not just my best friend, you are not just my boyfriend. You are not just my listener, and not only do I love like all who are special to me, but I am in love with you. You and you alone. You are the guy I have been dreaming of. Everything about you fits so perfectly into the image in my heart of my perfect guy, the image that I began building as a little girl"

*it's funny how much of an impact you have on me.
its like when i see you , you dont even have to speak..
all you can do is smile,and it can make my day,
and then that's when i remember my reasons for
loving you*

last nite i fell asleep
to our song on repeat
and every moment, every word,
every time it played
there wasn't a minute i
couldn't keep my mind off of you...
that means something

When the broken hearts are mended and the many tears are dried, you learn. When you're over the old boyfriends and girlfriends and you realize that you can live without your first love, you learn. You see that the world doesn't end just because you think it will, and that sometimes growing up means letting go. You learn what real love is, and you begin to see that one friend who really cares is better than a hundred friends who don't. You learn that you can be strong, take each day step-by-step, and survive every sad moment. So feel the pain and cry the tears, go out and experience life. But when you're at the end of your rope, and you're ready to jump off that ledge, remember that heartaches fades, pain subsides, and though life seems at times too tough to handle, it's also too precious a gift to waste. Keep on living, never give up, and remember : As you grow, you learn.

now I'll write I love you down
the same number of times you
said it to me, & I'll shove all the
pages down ur throat so
you can use them on the next
girl who thinks she`s your
e n t i r e w o r l d.

___cinderella walked upon broken glass.
sleeping beauty let a whole lifetime pass.
love is blood, sweat and tears._________
____________love is facing all your fears.

after we hung up the phone last night,
i just sat there in the dark.
all of a sudden tears started running down my face.
i didn't understand how i could be crying
when i was so happy, but then i realized they were
tears of joy. i thought about how lucky i am to have
someone like you, someone so understanding,
and so caring. the more i thought about how great
you are, the more the tears ran down my cheeks.

» when falling in love, do not stumble.
» when falling out of love, stumble, but do not fall.


i kno someday you'll wake up as lonely
as i am cause fate works both ways «'3



every day i see you with her ; every day she smirks
and looks at me. i know what shes thinking.. 'girl, i
got the one thing you cant have' and every day i think
' i dont just want him. i need him..i can't survive w/out
him. i'm dying without him '



* THAT S00N i'LL P0P iNT0 Y0UR
A MiSTAKE' ---/>

if tears made you pretty
.. id be fucking gorgeous

ii want s0m0ne to kiss away my tears nD` wrap
his arms arOund me and wen my day is all
[ wrong ] s0me0ne to actually [ love me ]

feel like i've lost [EVERYTHiNG] when you`re gone.
i`m left remembering what it`s like to have you here with me.
i thought you should know -- you're not making this easy.

any minute i`m not with you, i hope i`ll see you soon. there`s just
something that happens when you walk into the room and iNSTANTLY
i feel so c omplete. it hits me right about the time you talk to me and you
give me [THiS FEELiNG] -- its like no other feeling -- but it knocks me
off my feet. please don't ask me what i like about you .. cause its every little thing you do.

i wish i could find a love that will last forever. find a love who will never hurt me.
[BE BY MY SiDE UNTiL THE VERY END] » love me even when i`m wrong ..
be the bigger person and always make me [SMiLE] -- make me [LAUGH] when i
frown // WiPE MY TEARS WHEN i CRY \\ when i`m scared - always take away
my fears -- [i WiSH i KNEW S0MEB0DY LiKE THAT] <|||3

theres some day when you feel like crying ..
and some days when you have a reason to ..

i hate bein 'happy cuz it
jus means that somethin
bad is on its way to ruin
it all <|333

You mean the world to me and I'll never stop loving you 'Cause what you have given me I can never repay And if we meet again somehow, I will love you then as now 'Cause you mean the world to me

It always seems just as soon as things are going good, just as soon as life takes a turn for the best, everything goes wrong, gets lost, and confused, and all messed up, and then you crash, and you just have to sit there cause you don't have the strength to get up cause you know that someone else has come into the picture and taken your place in a heartbeat and now there is nothing you can do

Don't tell me the reason that you're calling is to see if I'm alright since you've been gone. Cuz I know you and I know why we're talking. You're wanting me to say I'm barely hanging on. Well baby that was true, for a night or two. But now, I've got better things to do.

"But in spite their differences, they had one important thing in common, they were crazy about each other"

there are things you dont want to happen but
you have to accept it, there are things you dont
want to know but you have to learn them and
there are people you cant live without,
but you have to let them go.

i've gone through this before.. and thats why i dont get why this is so hard for me to deal with... its the simple fact that he just doesnt want me like i want him, i guess, maybe, its so hard because for a while there.. he made me feel like he did... maybe thats the difference.

I think letting you go was the smartest decision I ever made. Even though I loved you so much, I just couldn't deal with the pain. And the times we spent together, holding each other, were the best times of my life. But no matter how much I wanted to keep you in my arms, I couldn't. I couldn't hold on to you, knowing that all you were going to do was hurt me. But right now, even though I still love you, I don't need you anymore. I don't need you to complete me. I just need you to comfort me when I'm sad, support me, and listen to me when I talk. So I guess what I'm saying is, I'm glad we're over. I'm glad I've let go.

The only reason
I would kick you off my bed..
is to fuck you on the floor.

Theres a danger in loving somebody too much and its sad when you know its their heart you cant trust. Theres a reason why people dont stay who they are. Baby sometimes
love just aint enough

Its so hard to think how much I love you and not break out in tears its so hard to know your not there to help me face all my fears, its so hard to know I should stop loving you but it really ain't my choice its so hard to know the phones at reach but I can't hear your voice, its so hard to see you smile when I'm crying deep inside its so hard to know you don't love me so I have to make my feelings hide, its so hard to live without you when I need you more then words I want to scream how much I love you but I hold back and am not heard, its so hard to go to sleep at night knowing I don't have you its so hard to know that you might fall in love with someone new, its so hard to not start crying when I hear that song its so hard to sit and wonder where did I go wrong? its so hard to live without you if only you coulda known I really thought you loved me until you left me here alone

its amazing how you feel about him
whenever your around him nothing
else matters..how your heart stops
and your left breathless and no
matter how many times he breaks
your heart he always seems to put
the pieces back together

Well .. I guess I*m trying to be nonchalant about all thiz `nd I*m going to extremes to prove I*m fine with*out you you .. but in reality I*m slowly losing my my mind ..under neath the disguise of a smile gradually I*m dying inside friends always ask me how I feel `nd I lie convincinly ... cuz I don*t wunna reveal the fact that I*m suffering so i wear my disguise *til I go home at night `nd turn down all the lights so then i can b r e a k down `nd c r y

×TeLl HiM I dOnT EvEr WanT tO sEe
HiM AgAiN×tElL HiM hE MeAnT cRaP
tO Me×TeLl hIm I NeVeR eVeN lOvEd
HiM×tElL HiM I wOnT miSs HiM aT
aLl×BuT mOsT oF AlL dOnT tElL HiM×I
sAiD tHiS wItH TeArS iN mY eYeS×

*As We SiT hErE tOgEtHeR*
.:.I tUrN AwAy.:.
*AfRaId U'd SeE tHe TeArZ*
.:.ThAt ArE AbOuT tO fOrM iN mY eYeZ.:.
*YoU aSk If AnYtHiNgS wRoNg*
.:.I sMilE-GiGgLe-N tElL u Im FiNe.:.
*BuT i CaNt StOp ThInKiN AbOuT*
.:.HoW mUcH i WiShEd U WeRe StIlL MiNe.

*i sOmEtiiMeS fEeL a LiiTtLe jEaLoUs iNsiDe`
iMaGiNiNg sOmEoNe cOuLd PLeAsE U.
mOre tHAn mE ii gUeSs iTs mY iNsEcUriTy
aCtiNg uP a biT bCuZ i kNO iM nOt
tHe moSt bEauTifUL , mOst fUn oR eVeN
tHe mOst eXciTnG pErSoN uL eVeR mEeT
bUt i dO kNo tHat nO mAtTeR hOw hArD .
aNd lOng U sEaRcH u wiLl nEvEr fiNd a
girL whO lOves U n cAreS aBouT U,
tHe wAy i dO...

Everyone keep's telling me to just get over you and to move on, they obviously don't understand just how hard I've already tried.

I love u more than anything in this world, and u tell me how much u care for me and how much u need me, but I know it's all a lie, because if you cared for me like you say u do, you wouldn't have caused me to stay awake night after night crying over what you put me through. I've been hurt by u so many times, I know it's better for me if I just give up and let you go, but u have been such a large part of me for so long... I don't know if I can make it through this world without you. You not only have captured my heart, but my soul... But I will let you go, and I will move on and maybe one day you will realize I mean as much to you just as much as you have to me, but hopefully by then I won't need you anymore because I already know how that story ends, and to be honest with you I don't think that I would be able to handle the hurt again...

Sometimes I wonder, did you really care
or if you even thought of me when I wasn't there.
Sometimes I wonder if I was ever in your heart,
or was i being used from the very start..?

my heart says yes
when my mind says no
telling me that its not right
i should just let you go
then remebering the times weve had
hope they last forever
the i face reality and see your not mine any more

She said, "Ive got to be honest, youre wasting your time if youre fishing around here." And he said,"You must be mistaken, I'm not fooling.. this feeling is real."
She said, "You gotta be crazy, what do you take me for some kind of easy mark? You've got wits, you've got looks,
you've got passion, but I swear that you've got me all wrong.
all wrong.
all wrong.
but you got me..."


"Call me tomorrow," she says sweetly in his ear.
"Baby, I promise," he says.. almost unclear.
A few days later she still sits by the phone, she cries, "When will I learn that I'm better off alone?"

He held her tight and said "I'm sorry for everything baby, it won't happen again"
She whispered quietly "But thats what you said before..how am i supposed to believe you?
He looked into her eyes and said "Because i love you.."
She got up and walked away replying.."I've heard that before too..."


"I just can't do this anymore" she tells her boyfriend, holding back tears
"But why not, we've been doing so good? what did i do wrong?" he said confused
"Nothing, i just can't be with you" she said looking away
"But baby, there has to be a reason why" he said softly
"I can't be with you because i've realized that i love you .... and i'm scared because you now have the power to hurt me more than ever." she said as the tears rolled down her cheeks

"This hurts so bad...i never thought he would hurt me" she said to her friend.
"Do you regret being with him? her friend asked
"I would never regret something that once made me smile like that" she said quietly


"You deserve better than me" he told her.
"But you are the only one i wanna be with" she replied, choking back tears.
"Well you can do so much better than me, you don't need to waste your time being with me"
She settled for that answer, realizing that he didn't really believe that she deserved better..he thought that she just wasn't good enough...

"This is your last chance" she said to him
"Ok I promise that this time i won't hurt you, but can i ask you one thing?" he replied gently
"Of course" she said
"Why do you give me so many chances after i hurt you so bad" he asked
"Well someday when someone that you love hurts you.. you will understand... sometimes i want to hate you for the things that you've done, but then i remember everything we had and i just can't let go.. my heart won't let me..."


Girl--"Do you love me?"
Boy--"Of course i do.."
Girl--"Then prove it to me"
The boy then looked right into her eyes, interlocked his fingers in hers, then softly kissed her lips...At that moment, she knew that he really did...


he gave me a hug and whispered the words softly in my ear..
"I love you" as i looked up i couldn`t help
but cry.. i never wanted the moment to die.. knowing it was
true.. and he was meant for me.. i suddenly smiled i never
knew '-> l0ve caMe s0 eAiSLY<-' *

she finally lets go of her fake smile & the tears
slowly roll down her face as she whispers in the
mirror, "i dont want to be me."

"I can't forget you." He said looking away from his blank stare
"But Im with him now." She said watching his teary eyes
"Then why do you look at me when your hugging him? Why do you stare at me when Im with my friends? Why do you try to hug me when you know it hurts so much? Why do u kiss me when you know you have him? Is it fun to hurt the ones that love you? Why are you doing this to me!" he said angerly
"Because my heart hasn't comprehended that i still love you but I can't be with you." she said turning away.


"Why don't we talk anymore?" He asked confused.
"I can't talk to you." She said tears running down her cheek.
"But why?" He asked looking into her teary eyes.
"Your with her. You love her." She said wiping away the pain.
"I love you too." He said glancing at his girlfriend standing in the distance.
"Don't lie to me." She whispered.
"Im not." He said looking back at her.
"Then do me a favor..." She said looking serious
"Anything." He said hoping for forgivness.
"Just forget me." She said walking away forever.

He hugs his girlfriend and looks up to see the other girl."Hey. wheres my hug?"
The girlfriend glares and the other girl stares.
"Sorry I have to go." The other girl says as she slowly walks away.

"Can you come over?" she said crying over the phone. "Maybe we can watch a movie or something?"
"Of course. I'm on my way," he said.
As he looked down at her beautiful face as she slept he whispered, "I wish I could tell you how I felt. I wish I could tell you I've loved you forever. I wish you could know that every night I dream of your face and I want to hold your hands for the rest of my life. I wish you could open your eyes and see he doesn't love you the way I do," he said as he kissed her hand and walked out the door.
"I wish you could tell me too," she said as she closed her eyes with tears running down.


"I don’t understand why after everything he does to you…you still go back to him," he said.
"I love him. I know I can do better and I know I should just walk away but I can’t. You’ll understand one day when you meet that special girl," she said as she got up and walked to the other room.
"I already have," he said under his breath. "She just doesn’t know she’s the one."

"Tell me you love me." He said
"I can't" She replyed
"Then tell me you care." he said
"I can't." She replyed with a sad look on her face
"Why?" he said with tears in his eyes
"Because...I don't want you to know how much I need you...because if I do then you will then have the power to hurt me." She said sadly looking away

"You think I would be over you by now...we were so far in the past." She says looking at all the pictures from her first love
"Yeah...crushes never last." He says looking at her beautiful face
"I still cry over you." She says looking at his caring face
"I still think of all the cute things you do." He says grining at the thought of all the memories
"These feelings will probley never go away." She says looking into his enchanting blue eyes
"Well...Maybe they were meant to stay." He says touching her hair gently as he leans in for a kiss

"You promised me you wouldn't...but you lied." She said crying
"Im sorry I didn't want you to find out." He said
"Well I did!!" She whispered
"Im sorry...Do you forgive me? Give me another chance...Please?" He said begging for forgiveness
"Fine..." She said doubtful "One more chance..."
"I didn't exactly lie to you." He said looking into her sad eyes
"But you didn't tell the truth either..." She quietly said

"I know we're not together anymore, but I still care about you. Please tell me what's wrong." She said on the phone one night. "No matter how hard I laugh, I am still not happy. No matter how hard I cry, the sadness still grows. The more people that love me, the more I feel empty. I just need for you to love me, for all the pain to go." He said, opening himself up to her. "But, I'm with hir now..." She softly said. "Yea... I know," He said as he began to cry, "But, I see the way you still look at me when you are with him... and I don't understand why we can't be together."



"Why do you purposely do this to me? Why do you fill me with false hope?" She asked sadly
"Do what? How do I fill you with false hope?" He asked
"Come so close to me. Hug me tell me that you love me. Tell me that you care." She said with a tear running down her cheek
"I mean all those things. Your the only one for me." He said kissing her head
"I almost believed that...But then I realize you do the same thing with her." She said quietly


"U pretend that U R free but U know the truth" He said looking into her eyes "What's the truth?" She asked confused "U pretend like nothing is holding U back from givin Ur whole heart 2 him But I think otherwise I think U are still in love with me" he said lookin in2 her eyes 4 an answer "Thats ridiculous" She said "Is it? Or is it ridiculous that U watch me when im with my friends U still hug me when were alone U try Ur hardest 2 talk 2 me w\out him knowing"He said "How do U know that?" She said "Cause Even though Ur with sum1 else now I still see U watchin me Cuz im watchin U 2 I hug U back when were all alone cause I want to hold u in my arms even if it's just 4 a second 2 no what it feels like 2 be the 1 u love the most" He whispered

"My heart breaks in two because of you. But you don't care." She said crying
"I do care." He said wiping away her tear
"Then why don't you show it?" She said looking away
"Because...I was afraid you didn't feel what I feel." He said quietly
"Well I guess we both know the truth now..."She said slowly turning to look at his face
"So it's finally safe to say i love you?" He said reaching to hold her hand

"I guess I've gotten use to the fact that we will never be together." he said getting up
"How do you know we will never be together?" She asked grabbing his arm
"Because your with him now." He said sadly
"Im with him...But my heart belongs to you." She said
"I'll believe that once you tell him that." He whispered forcing a smile goodbye


"What are you thinking about?" she asked as they held eachother in the rain. "You, me, the way things used to be," he softly replied. "Yea, thats what I thought," she said as she squeezed him tight. "I've missed you. God, did you know I've missed you?" he asked her. "Oh," she said as she gently pulled away from him. "What's wrong? Don't you miss me too?" he asked confused. "I do miss you," she confessed,"not enough to want you back, just enough for it to hurt."

"You know, you're going to have to choose," she said looking up at him.
"What do you mean? You know you're my only one," he said squeezing her hand.
"Than why were you holding her hand and telling her the exact same thing?" she said as she walked away.


"I just want to hold you again," he said to her.
"Seems to me you want to hold everybody lately," she said angirly.
"Of course not. You're the only girl for me," he said.
"That's funny, because I heard you use that exact same line on her," she said as she pointed in the distance.


"I'd do anything for you," he said looking down at her.
"Anything?" she said to him looking into his eyes
"Of course I would," he said.
"Look me in the eye and tell me you love me and only me. That when you smile at me you're thinking of me and not her. Just tell me the truth," she said looking at him seriously.
As she looked up at his confused eyes she knew he would never love her the way he loved another.
"That's what I thought," she said as she walked away holding back tears.

"You're such a strong person" her friend told her.
"No thats just it....i used to be... but when he came into my life that all changed" she whispered
"I don't get it...you've been able to put up with the things that hes done and stay with him" he friend said confused
"Exactly...i'm not strong enough to let go and walk away...he has my heart" she said a a tear slowly rolled down her cheek.


"Don't tell me that you love me if you don't mean it" she said to him
"I do love you i really do" he said
"You know what i think?" she asked
"What?" he said confused
"I think that u wanna love me so you say that you do so you can convince yourself, but i dont think you really love me" she said quietly
He just stood there in silence, avoiding her hurt eyes
"Yeah just as i thought," she replied, "so please don't say it until you know that you mean it"

"Listen if you don't want to be with me, just give me the word and I'll leave you alone." He said picking up his coat
"No that's not it! I love you, of course I want to be with you. It's just that im afraid..." She said quietly
"Afraid? Of what? Listen, you never have to be afraid im always here." He said
"That's what im afraid of. That you will always be there with me...I will start needing you. And when your not there im afraid I'll start missing you." She said looking away
He stood there not saying anything
"Im afraid to fall in love with you." She whispered

"Promise you will never let me down." He said thinking about how much he loves her
"Trust me when I say if you trust me I will let you down." She said
"Why? Don't you love me?" He asked confused at her response
"I do love you. But im one to make mistakes." She said
"We all make mistakes." He said sitting down beside her
"Oh believe me, no one does it quite like me." She said thinking about her past

"u could have had any girl u wanted but out of all the girls u had to pick me " she managed to say "I DIDN'T WANT ANY OF THEM I WANTED U" he yelled "out of every one why did u choose me" she said as she cryed "i cant help it if i fell in love" he told her"how many times do i have to tell u i dont want them i want u" he wispered into her ear...


him: i mean she likes me...she goes out of her way 2 hang out with me..shes an amazing friend 2 me..so y wuudnt we be "together" n sumtimes i dont have feelings 4 her buut in the end i do cuz of those reasons
Her: yea..exactly why wouldnt u be with her..what is stopping you?
Him: the feelings..i have when im with you..
Her: i dont even understand how ur even considering that u might have feelings for me over her...shes amazing, beautiful..and she is in love with you
him: im not sure of anything right now but i know that when im with you i see the most amazing girl in the entire world...ur funny...not afraid to be urself..and u just make me feel like im important to somone i find myself wanting to be with u but then i sit back and..i say to myself...she would never have feelings for me, and im back to her again
Her: if only u knew.(she said as shhe walked away silent tears streamig down her face)

"You're so beautiful" he told her as he looked into her eyes
"How? I'm crying and have makeup running down my face" she said as she smiled thru her tears
"Because i love you...and you will aLwAyS be beautiful in my eyes" he said


"You seem to enjoy being single," her ex said after watching her flirt with all the boys.
"Yea, I make the best of it," she said smiling.
"I dont understand how you can see me here, yet still be having the time of your life with everyone else," he said confused.
"And what I dont understand," she said, "is how you can see me here and expect me to still be in love with you."
"I'd at least expect you to be sad," he said
"Remember when we broke up?" she asked, "You hurt me so bad and when I said I couldn't promise that you would always have a place and a way to my heart... I meant it."

"I just can't do this anymore" she tells her boyfriend, holding back tears
"But why not, we've been doing so good? what did i do wrong?" he said confused
"Nothing, i just can't be with you" she said looking away
"But baby, there has to be a reason why" he said softly
"I can't be with you because i've realized that i love you .... and i'm scared because you now have the power to hurt me more than ever." she said as the tears rolled down her cheeks


"You are the only girl i've ever loved" he said to her
"Well why don't you ever act like i am?" she asked
"Because i was scared" he said quietly
"Scared? Scared of what?" she said confused
"Scared that i would lose you...and scared that i was gonna hurt the one thing i loved" he said
"Then why would u hurt me" she said
"Because you deserve better and i realized that so i had to let you go...im sorry" he said as he walked away


guy: best friend:hey i u look nice today(thinking how much he wants her)
her:o thanx(i wish u knew how i felt)
guy:so how was ur day?(i love u)
her:fine (i want u)
guy:o got to go bye(i wish i could kiss u)
her:o ok bye(i want to kiss u so bad)


"Whats wrong?" her best guy friend asked as she ran to him crying.
"We got into a fight," she cired, talking about her current boyfriend.
"Oh, it will be okay. It always works itself out," he said, secretly wanted to kill the asshole who made her cry.
"Why do I always put myself through so much pain?" she asked sobbing.
"I dont know, you deserve someone who loves you as much as you love him," he said holding her tight.
"No one loves me as much as he does..." she said pulling away from him.
"The one who loves you the most..." he whipered as she walked away, "Only pretends to be your friend."

DERiCK: i guess we`re the leftovers in this world. LiLY: i think so.. all of my friends have boyfriends and we`re the only two people without any special person in our lives. DERiCK: yup.. i don`t know what to do. LiLY: i know! we`ll play a game. DERiCK: what game? LiLY: i`ll be your girlfriend for 30 daysz & you`ll be my boyfriend. DERiCK: that`s a great plan. in fact.. i don`t have anything to do much for the following weeks. DAY 1: they watch their first movie & they`re both touched by the romantic film. DAY 4: they went to go to the beach & have a picnic. derick and lily have their quality time together. DAY 12: derick invited lily to a circus and they ride thru a horror house. lily was scared & she thought she touched derick`s hand but she actually touched someone else`s hand. they both laughed. DAY 15: they saw a fortune teller down the road, & they asked for their future advice. the fortune teller said: my darlings, please don`t waste the time of your life. spend the rest of your time together, happily. then tears flow out from the teller`s eyes. DAY 20: lily invited derick to go to the hill & they saw a meteor. lily mumbled something. DAY 28: they sat on the buss.. & because of a bumpy road, lily give her first kiss to derick.. by accident. DAY 29: 11:37 pm: lily & derick sat in the park where they first decided to play this game. DERiCK: i`m tired lily.. do youu want anything to drink? i`ll buy youu one.. i`ll just go down the road. LiLY: an apple juice.. that`s all. thank youu. DERiCK: ook.. wait for me. 20 MiNUTES LATER A STRANGER APPROACHED LiLY. STRANGER: are youu a friend of derick? LiLY: yes, why? what happened? STRANGER: a reckless driver ran over derick.. he`s in critical condition in the hospital. 11:57 pm: the doctor walked out of the emergency room. he handed lily an apple juice & a letter. DOCTOR: we found this in derick`s pocket. lily reads the letter & it says: lily, these past few weeks, i realized youu are a really cute girl, and i`m really falling for youu. your cherished smile, your everything. when we played this game.. before this game would end.. i would like youu to be my girlfriend for the rest of my life. i love youu lily. lily crumpled up the paper and shouted: derick! i dont want youu to die. i love youu.. remember that night when we saw a meteor. i mumbled something.. i mumbled that i wish we would be together forever. and that we would never have to end this game. please don`t leave me derick.. i love youu! youu can`t do this to me! then the clock strikes 12.. derick`s heart stopped pumping. iT WAS THE 30th DAY. ( awhh.. thas soo sadd. )


"I don't see why you love him," her friend said to her.
"I just do. I can't explain it. It's just love..." she said to him.
"Yeah, I know all about love. It breaks hearts. To see that person with someone who doesn't even deserve them," he said looking down.
"Who is it? Do I know her? I'll talk to her for you!" she said as she walked to the other room.
"Yeah, you kno her alright. It's you...it's always been you..."

"Lets hang out or something tonight," he said hopeful.
"Ehh, I don't know. We haven't hung out in a few months now. As a matter of fact, we haven't even really talked in a while now." she said, unsure of his intentions.
"I know. I want to change that. I was thinking about all the memories we have together, and I just want to be with you again." he said.
"Yea, you think about the good memories, but what about the bad?" she asked.
"Lets just start over," he pleaded.
"I would want to," she explained, "But only if everytime I saw you I didn't think about how you shattered my heart into a million pieces, and thats not going to happen anytime soon. Whenever I think of you, I think of heartbreak. It wasn't right between us, I dont need to go through all that pain one more time just to prove it to myself again."

"Are you gonna be ok?" her best friend asked her as she watched the tears pour from her eyes
"I don't know...right now it doesn't feel like it..." she whispered thru her tears
"Is the worst part the fact that you guys are over?" her friend asked
"No...it's that i know that even after all this...we aren't" she said looking away


"I only wish you understood...." he said to the girl he loved
"Understood what? I understand that everything you told me was a lie and that i meant nothing to you...what else is there to understand!?" she yelled
"No i wish you understood that you mean the world to me, but you never will because your eyes can't see past the tears...the tears that i caused" he said as he walked away.

"He's not worth those tears" her mom whispered in her ear
"But mom....i love him..." she said
"Sweetie someday you will realize that you deserve better...and someday you're gonna have it all" her mom said to her
"I just wish my someday would come sooner..." she whispered


"Oh no, what is he doing here?" she asked her friend as they walked into the party.
"Just ignore him," she said.
"But he's talking to HER. He knows I can't stand her," she said as shes started to get nervous. Her friend didn't hear her though. She was too busy greeting everyone with big hugs.
"I didn't think you were going to show up," he ex casually remarked as he walked past her standing alone.
"Well, this is MY friends house," she repiled getting defensive.
"It's nice to see that you finally came out after we broke up," he said, like the asshole he is, as he walked away.
"No, I don't know what she's doing here," he said to a group of guys, "Just stay away from her."
She looked to her friends for comfort, but they were no where to be found. She threw on her coat and was opening the door when he yelled across the room."What? You have to leave when things get bad? When you can['t handle it?"
"Well," she said just loud enough for him to hear, "I learned from you."

"Hello?" she said as she answered her phone. She looked at the clock. It was 2 a.m. "Hey darling," he said. "Ugh, what are you calling me this late at night?" she asked half asleep. "Well baby," her boyfriend said, "I just wanted to see what you were dreaming about."


"I still think about you, and I want to be your friend," she said late that afternoon.
"Well, I barely ever think about you and I would be a liar if I said I wanted to be your friend."
"I doesn't matter to me... you can take my heart and break it as many times as you want, and for one reason or another I'll still be by your side." she replied
"Why?" he asked
"Because," she said softly, "The pain you put me through is better then you not caring at all."


You said, "It's love." I said, "It's love." But neither of us even loved the other truely. "I only thought I did," you said. "I only wanted to," I replied. "I never meant to hurt you baby. Believe me, I never wanted those tears to fall," you pleaded. "But tomorrow brought the consequence," I responded, "we are through now. You stole the warmth of our kissed. And I probably wasn't what you wanted me to be."


"We're so perfect together," he whipsered
"I know, I feel so safe in your arms," she said as she kissed his cheek.
"Why wont you let yourself fall in love with me then?" he asked, ruining the moment.
"Beacuse, its like once youve been hurt your so scared to get attachted again," she said defensively, "Likew you have this fear that every person you start to fall for is going to break your heart."
"I'm not like every person," he said, raising his voice
"Well," she said as she paused to think, "Prove it to me."


"Just stay away!" she yelled in the hallway
"Why? I just wanted to talk!" he yelled back, somewhat embarassed.
"Well, I don't." she said
"Do you have a reason why not?" he asked
"Because I have realized what we had is never going to end if we keep on talking," she said as she loweed her voice, "And everytime we start to talk, I think... Here we go again."
"Is that really a bad thing?" he asked, "Maybe, I want you back... What can I do? What would you have done if you were me?"
"If I were you," she said as she started to back away, "I would have never let me go..."


"Im not leaving until you tell me." She said crossing her arms
"I don't know if I can." He said looking away from her curious stare
"Why? Because you don't want her to find out? I promise, I won't tell." She said smirking
"Why do you care if I still care about you?" He asked
"Because, Im sick of wodering if Im crazy for liking you. Im sick of being in this one sided feeling. I just want to have relief that maybe, Im not crazy. Maybe you really do care about me." She said uncrossing her eyes and wipping awya a tear
"I care about you...but..." He said slowly
"Just not the way I care about you?" She said sighing ready to walk away
"No. Im afraid you will stop caring and I'll be the one in a one sided relationship." He whispered


"I'll be fine." She said
"I don't think you will be." He said watching a tear roll down her cheek
"Don't worry, crushes I get over, my tears will go away." She said wiping away her tears trying to look strong
"Oh...So your over me?" He asked with a sense of disapointment
"No, I don't know. Loving you is different, it's almost like...the tears will always stay." She said not being able to calm herself down

"Have you benifited at all from this relationship?" She asked sadly
"Yes. If there's one thing I learnt it's that always take a chance before it passes you. Because tomorrow it may be too late. Then your only wish, may become your deepest regret." He said
"What was your wish?" She asked looking into the faded eyes of the only boy she truley loved
"To tell you how I felt about you. But then he told you first...Im sorry. Maybe I shouldn't be, but I am." He said looking away
"No, Im sorry. I should have known this all along." She said wishing she was with the boy she truely loved


"I've missed you, you know. I miss hearing your voice. I miss seeing that smile," he said looking at her.
"Well, I don't miss it. I don't miss the way I would stay up all night crying over you. I don't miss the fact you always smiled at her. I'm over this. I'm over you," she said as she smiled for the first time.


"I don't need him anymore," she said to her best friend.
"Are you sure?" he said as he watched his best friend's face as he walked by with his new girlfriend.
"No, but that's what I keep telling myself," she said.

"I see you when you look at me" she said quietly
"Well you are lookin at me then too" he said
"Yeah but why do you turn away everytime you see me looking back?" she whispered
"I don't..." he said turning his head to avoid her stare
"Yes you do and you know that you do... you are afraid...afraid that something might happen if you keep looking...that the feelings will all come rushing back if you look me in the eyes...just admit it" she said as her eyes filled with tears
"No...all my feelings for you never left..." he said as he walked away

"I promise you I will never hurt you" he said as he kissed her forehead
"Don't promise me that...because you will break that promise eventually" she said
"No i won't, i promise i could never hurt you" he said
"Just promise me that if and when you hurt me that you will be here to catch me when i fall" she whispered to him

"You know what I love about you?" she said smiling
"What?" he said as he kissed her forehead
"The way we can just lay here in each others arms and say nothing but have the best conversation ever" she said as she layed her head on his shoulder

"You lied to me, cant you just stop?" she asked
"I didnt tell you b/c i love you," he said
"You keep lying, and more tears keep coming," she whispered while walking away..."

"I only wish you understood...." he said to the girl he loved
"Understood what? I understand that everything you told me was a lie and that i meant nothing to you...what else is there to understand!?" she yelled
"No i wish you understood that you mean the world to me, but you never will because your eyes can't see past the tears...the tears that i caused" he said as he walked away.

"Can i have just one last kiss before you go?" she said to her now ex-boyfriend
"No baby i told you we can't do this anymore" he said to her
"Just one last kiss ... to end everything on a good note" she begged
"No" he said again
"But why?" she said, tears filling her eyes
"Because it wont end everything on a good note.... because if we kiss each other again....it wont be the end...it will be another beginning" he said as he kissed her forehead and walked away, as the tears streamed down his cheeks.

"It's the saddest situtation I've ever known," she told him through her tears, "To love somebody, and still feel so alone."

"And I keep searching for someone new," she told him, "Because God knows, its so lonely still loving you."

"So how was your date?" her ex love said over the phone.
"He lit up a cigerette and spoke right through the smoke... saying things I couldn't hear and things I didn't care to know," she said, "And all I could do is shake my glass of ice and think of you."


"The more he has to say," she told the boy she loved "The more my heart drifts away.... wondering where you might be and if you might be thinking of me."


You Tell Me That You Love Me,
You Tell Me That It's True,
But Really It's Just A Lie For Me From You.

i hate how you whisper "I Love You".. like its a secret

"I love you" he said looking into her eyes.
"I love you too" she said smiling up at him.
And the perfect moment ended with a perfect kiss.

"Can I hold your hand?" he asked awkwardly.
"Sure." she said as she put her hand out for him to grab.
As she smiled up at him she realized he not only grabbed her her. He grabbed her heart.

"Please, don't lie to me," she whispered.
"I won't. I promise you," he said "I love you."
"I said don't lie to me," the girl said looking down.
"I'm not lying. I love you, with all my heart..."

If your word's were lies, were your kisses too?

"I'm not over him. But it's getting easier to pretend I am. So getting over him is just around the corner, right?" she whispered as she cried herself to sleep.

Somewhere between the broken promises.
And somewhere between the lies.
Sat a broken-hearted girl
Who kissed her love goodbye.

"He's lying to you, you know," she said.
"I know. But it's better than hearing the truth," she whispered.

"You deserve better," he said as he watched his best friend pour out tears over the boy that broke her heart.
"I know," she whispered. "I can't help it. I love him" she said before breaking down into tears.
"I know you do," he said looking at her. "I guess you can't control who you love..." he said watching the girl of his dreams.

"Promise me, you'll never leave," she said.
"Oh baby. I'd never do that," he whispered. "Never..."

"I just want you to love me," she said.
"And I just want you to lie," he whispered.


"Maybe we could go out sometime," he said.
"I don't think so," she replied.
"Why not? We deserve a second chance," he said.
"You had your chance. I waited for you. I would've done anything. I'm sorry. You lost your chance, she said walking away.


"You look like you're doing good," he says when he finally gets up the courage to talk to her.
"I could be better," she says as her heart starts beating faster.
"What's wrong? Did someone hurt you?" he asked the girl who once loved him.
"Yea..I guess you could say that," was all she could manage to get out.
"I'll beat him up," he said, trying to impress her.
"Hmm, it's kind of hard to beat up yourself isn't it?" she asked as she walked away from the boy who had once walked away from her.


All the promises,
All the sweet nothings whispered,
All the Lies


"You couldn't even look me in the eyes," he said to her.
"I know..." she said, looking down, "It just felt awkward."
"That's not my fault!" he yelled
"I know... I'm sorry." she said as she began to cry.
"I'm sorry too," he replied. "I'm sorry I ever said I loved you, cuz baby, I lied."

"I'm Not Like Other Guys,"--- Famous words of EVERY guy

"I still love you!" She said crying
"But im with her now..." He said quietly
"I know. But something about the way you look at me and smile makes me think you still feel something too." She said trying to wipe away her tears
"I have a girlfriend now." He said wishing he could tell her the truth
"Then honestly tell me that it's over." She said looking into his blue eyes sadly
"I can't..." He whispered
"Fine. I guess I'll just keep living with a dead heart." She said getting up walking away
"I love you too." He whsipered under his breath


"I still dream of you sometimes." She said looking away
"Really?" He said confused about his true feelings for her
"But wake up knowing you dreamt of her." She said walking away with tears filling her eyes


"We shouldn't be doing this." She said pushing away
"Why?" He asked looking into the eyes of the girl he loved
"You have a girlfriend." She said looking away
"But I love you." He said truthfully
"That doesn't make it right." She said walking away with tears in her eyes
"Don't go." He said grabbing her arm
"Im sorry." She said walking away from the one she has always loved


He said "I've seen you with him, He doesn't make you smile." But the way I see it, He doesn't make me cry.

boy:: why don't you like me?
girl:: i do like you.. its just..
boy:: just... what?
girl:: i'm so fraid to fall again..
boy:: this is different..
girl:: how is this any different?!?
boy:: because this time... i'll catch you*


You look me in the eye and tell me that you're nothing
I look at you with a tear and whisper to you "You're everything"


"Why do you still love me? I'm with her now," he whispered as he hugged her goodnite.
"You can't control who you love. You're not supposed to," she said as she started to cry. "Look at me. At least you found someone who loves you back."


"I love you, and I'll call you later," he said as he kissed her on the cheek.
"No," she replied, finally snapping on him. "Screw your I love yous that you don't mean. Screw your I'll call yous, and the phone that didn't ring."
"What is wrong with you?" he asked, "I have changed..."
"No you haven't," she said as the tears began to fall, "I loved you more than life itself... but I should have known... I should have seen it in your eyes... that I'd end up alone."


"How could you do this?" I asked through my tears.
"It just happend. I was drunk..." he said slowly.
"It just happend? You just happend to kiss another girl? I was out of town for one weekend..." I said as I started sobbing.
"Baby, I was drunk." he said, trying to comfort me.
"Don't give me that baby bullsh.it!" I yelled, "Drunk, were ya? We'll your one little "drunken" mistake just ruined everything we ever had. I hope it was worth it."


"What's wrong?" he said as I started to cry. Not knowning that he had just broke my heart, I just sat there, refusing to say anything.
"I don't understand you!" he yelled.
Right before he walked away I said, "If you can't understand my silenece, you could never begin to understand my words."


"Im sick of smiling and holding back tears." She said to her best friend as tears filled her eyes
"Things will get better." Her best friend said hugging her close
"That's what I keep telling myself. But nothing changes. I have felt this way for a long time." She said tears running down her cheeks
"What's wrong?" Her friend asked confused
"The real question is what is right. Im just sick of pretending." She said breaking down


"I have practiced this so many times but im still confused as what to say," She said nervously
"But I can't lie to myself anymore. I really like you. I have liked you for a really long time. It hurts to see you with her and know you don't care. Sometimes I think you like me too, then I see you kiss her and I know it's just my hopes getting higer. So, do you think, maybe just maybe you could give me a chance?" She said with tears almost filling her eyes
"Good...now if I just can say that to him." She said staring at herself in the mirror and picking up her school bag

"I'm sorry we fell apart, but I love you. Can't we just start over?" He said hugging her
"I don't know." She said thinking about what he was saying
"You don't know how much I missed you." He said holding her closer
"How can you miss me, when your the one who let me go?" She said pushing him away

"I can't have this conversation with you." She said sadly
"Please, I need to talk to you. It's been a long time, I shouldn't have left you I know that. But I love you. I never stopped." He said trying to make her smile for his own benifit
"It's funny how you say you love me, right after you let me go." She said with a discusted look on her face

"I've loved you from the moment I learned how to love." You said
"Or was it the moment you learned to lie?" I whsipered to myself


"Tell me three words that will break my heart." She said
"I love you." He whispered

"It would never work out if we tried again." he said as he wiped her tears.
"Why not?" she sobbed, "I miss you."
"No, you only miss the idea of me," he said as he tried to comfort her. "You were too busy when we were together. You were bragging about this guy and that guy. Trying to make me jealous."
"And did you get jealous?" she asked as her tears suddenly stopped.
"Why would you want me to be jealous?" he asked, dumbfounded.
"To show some type of emotion!" she screamed, "Or maybe just too prove that you cared...."

"So do you have a boyfriend yet?" her ex asked her
"What do you think?" she said sarcastically
"Yes?" he asked
"No" she replied
"I wish i could be" he said quietly
"I wish you could be too but you were once...and obviously it didn't mean much to you then so i know it wouldn't now" she replied

"I won't ever hurt you again" he said to the girl he loved
"Don't make promises you can't keep" she said softly
"I'm not" he said
"Yes you are and you know it" she replied getting irritated
"Ok..well i will promise that this time i will be there to catch you when you fall" he said as he held her in his arms

"Love me," I mumbled "Ohh, But I do," His answer so sweet. I woke up and relized it was a cruel heartbreaking dream.

Do you ever lay in bed hoping that omorrow
you'll wake up in the emergency room & hear the
words "I'm sorry... she's not going to make it".. I do

i try to erase the pictures of you and me on my phone, but what i always realize is that i can't erase you from my heart.


"Yea, so," he said as he put his car in park in her driveway.
"Haha," she giggled, "Walk me to my door?"
"Of course babe," he said as he eagerly jumped out of his car.
They slowly walked up to her porch and both said somethings neither one of them could remember and then they began to kiss. All the memories began to rush back, and she forgot why she had left him in the first place.


"He doesn't want to be with me, does he?" I asked his best friend last nite.
"Well, um.. "he began to say.
"Nevermind," I said, scared of his answer. "I would rather go on pretending everything is just fine, then to hear that it isn't."


Girl: do you really love me?
Boy: of course I do.
Girl: I wanna hear u say it.
Boy: I don’t have to
Girl: y?
Boy: because...
Girl: I just want to hear you say it in words
Boy: I can’t.
The girl started to cry softly and said:
then u don’t love me!
The two continued to walk in silence. they
reached the girls home.
Girl: why?
Boy: Do u really want to know?
Girl: (hesitantly) yes.
He hugged her gently, kissed the tip of her nose
and whispered in her ear,
"Because three words are not enough."


"This is just a one time thing right?" She said sitting down
"Yeah, It will be all over after this." He said sitting beside her
"Because I just want someone I don't have to love forever." She said looking away
"Don't worry you don't have to love me at all." He said smiling
"So this is basically what? A fling? I didn't want it to be a fling I mean I actually like you." She said looking into his blue eyes
"You do?" He said confused
"Yes. Don't you like me? At least alittle?" She said sadly
"I like you enough to kiss you." He said kissing her cheek
She said there with tears filling her eyes...all she would ever be was a pointless kiss. And that killed her.

I told him I was afraid of falling, and he whispered, "I have wings."


I feel sometimes, that nobody's held me down and forced me to cry or made me hug them, or got to the inside of me. It's like I say 'oh I'm fine' and I walk away. Nobody's ever said 'no you're not'


"I love you," he said
"oh" she replied back, looking at the ground
"Thats all u can say? OH? after ive stretched every limb just for you?!"
"its just i dont know if i believe you, but i love you too..." she said right before realizing that he had walked away


"What are you thinking about right now?" she asked him as he stood in front of her
"How much i love you..." he whispered
"I wish you would Lie to me" She said as hear eyes filled with tears.


Boy--I miss you baby
Girl--Do you really or are you just saying that?
Boy--I really do... i think about you all the time...every day
Girl--Good ... you're started to get a hint of what i've been doing for a long time now


you said you never wanted
to see me get hurt.
so did you just close your
eyes when you made me cry?

He whispered softly,
his words like music to her ears,
"I Love You,"
and her response the same,
heard like the gentle breeze,
"And I, love you, forever."

"You aren't upset?" he asked with tears in his eyes.
"No," she said, "Something told me this would be another lie."

"Were you afraid", she asked him.
"Yeah, I was very afraid. I walked in and saw you lying there, not breathing, and all I could think about was the bad times we had together. Every time we had yelled at each other, fought and lied came rushing to my memory. And then I remembered how much I loved you. I was afraid I would never be able to tell you how much you meant to me. I was afraid that the last thing you would remember me saying to you was that I hated you. I was afraid I would never be able to tell you that although we may fight and lie and scream, without you I would be lost, without you my life would be incomplete", he said as a tear rolled down his cheek.


i love how your eyes close
whenever you kiss me. & when
i'm away from you, i love how
you miss me. i love the way you
always treat me tenderly. but,
darling most of all, i love how
you love me. i love how your
heart beats whenever i hold you.
i love how you think of me without
being told to. i love the way your
touch is always heavenly, but
darling most of all i love how
you love me <3


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